Monday, June 26, 2006
haha charlie, what do you mean last month, i still am sad. pfth. kaizen was such a far cry from school. i guess i love it so much because for the four days, i didnt have to think of homework, grades or my mom.
TODAY I AM OFFICIALLY FOURTEEN. YAY ME. haha
i love all my presents. especially all the letters. this morning i woke up surprisingly early seeing that i fell asleep at 3am. left the house 5 min earlier but arrived in school 5 minutes later. in my haste to get to class on time, i tripped on the stairs in the concourse nearly dropping all my things. then i got up and to my horror, ms tan was like walking towards me. thank goodness she didnt see my unglam moment.
haha. went to class. hehe. met megan on the way, she wished me happy birthday. the first to do so this morning to be exact. my mom totally ignored it. I LOVE YOU MEGAN. anyway, wilona, kelly, hannah, meiyan, seeyue and a bunch of other ppl sang happy birthday to me, hehe.
today was so mother tongue week thing and chapel and devotions were conducted in chinese. when mrs sim started reading the devotions in chinese, charlie burst out laughing REALLY LOUDLY. everyone stared at her. even the sec 4's two classes away. AHAHAHA.
chapel was in chinese too, had a little trouble singing because i couldnt understand what i was singing. was really lost when this chinese pastor guy came to preach. then we had free period because mrs pandian wasnt here.
during recess kelly and gang bought me my birthday quan mix. it has been a ritual since january. then they forced me into playing catching. me and seeyue ran back to class leaving kelly looking for us in the quadrangle. then i ran past 2S ad saw lipin inside so i decided to stay a while. had chinese, then art and then me pee, i mean plee and wil went to kap.
bought wil lunch and we talked a while then i went home.
my mom was at home again. she just wont leave me alone. dammit. will it kill her to speak to me nicely for once and not bark and frown. sheesh. if someone yells at me , i will most certainly yell back. all i want is one day,
one day, where she could just not yell at me. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK. bloodyhell. she just had to go ruin my birthday like all my other birthdays. jesus why did you give me a mother like that, why isnt my mother like other mothers? they dont yell everyday. they speak nicely to their children and they dont enforce stupid morals to try and turn they children into them.
i can now have a decent conversation with my brother about how much i hate my mother. he doesnt hate her because he always seems to not be on her bad side. i hate my mother. i bet i'm the only one. other mothers love their daughters and daughters love their mothers. i have searched my heart for any traces of these daughterly feelings but seriously, i cant find any. our relationship must have hit rock bottom.
haha. i shall blog about happy things now since it is my birthday afterall. i bought a art attack magazine which i found in coldstorage, hehe. its quite funny. theres this page where they teach you how to make giant sunglasses. it will be 10pm soon and there will be desperate housewives and then greys anatomy. 2hours of pure bliss. this afternoon plee and i met astrid on the bus, haha, and she told us she loved weining. looks like i'm not the only crooked one. sigh. school tmr. i feel like crying. i guess the holiday has to end sometime but it didnt have to end THAT FAST. june practically just zoomed past. its been like a month since i came back from camp.
i remember on that fateful afternoon at the check point, hannah and i were singing singapore songs. hehe. WE ARE SINGAPORE. and i went to kap with wil and just sat there talking and eating ben and jerry's. sigh.
dawn
the FOURTEEN year old, emotionally unstable adolescent.
9:21 PM
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