Wednesday, June 21, 2006
my life sucks.
got up at 7 am this morning to see johanthan off at school. there was this huge last minute rush around the house and i got yelled at twice for nothing. sheesh. my parent love my brother more, there wasnt any of this hysteria when i went for camp. my mother actually only remembered on monday night, when she saw me sitting around. i was refusing to pack my bag because i didnt want to go for camp. then she was like. "you got camp right? when ah?" ohmygoodness. then i said yes mom in a bored sorta tone and she yelled at me.
yea so we reached johnathan's school and waited about in the hall. the boys there were downright irritating, one of them ran right into me and walked off. i wanted to hit him but my mom was in the vicinity. my brother had the whole family to send him off and who was there wheni went for camp? only my dad. sheesh. talk about favortism. oh and my brother will be gone for only 3 days but he has more stuff then me when my camp was 4 days. haha. i dont know if any of our trainers are going because the stupid teacher shooed us off at 9.
after that mom and i went to the market to buy my favourite meepok. hehh. and went home, where my mom kept bugging me about her worries for my brother. i went back to sleep and woke up at about 3pm to do my art.
mom made us go to the campsite just now to look for my brother, but they were out hiking i think so i didnt see him, or any of the trainers. dammit. it was the only reason i agreed to go. the campsite looked like a chalet. haha. but i rather have kaizen.
i hate my mother. all she ever does is judge and yell at me. sheesh. she expects me to be like her in every single way. the truth is i am not her and i dont want to be her either. she made such a big fuss this morning about my brother but i didnt see her get all excited when i went for camp. she didnt even remember. she claims to understand me but the fact is she doesnt because i am not her. it weird how i can miss someone i only knew for four days and not miss mom at all when i was at camp or when she was in japan. infact, if given the chance, i would rather stay longer at kaizen to escape her nagging and yelling. it says something doesnt it. i wish i had a sister, jesus why did you give me a brother? a younger one also. i prefer having a younger brother to no siblings at all but i rather have a sister instead, preferbly an older one so my mother has someone else to judge. i miss kaizen and everyone there so so much.sorry. i'm just having one of my moods.dawn
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