Tuesday, July 18, 2006
today was not a good day, to think i still thought i could be salvaged.
didnt have much lessons, it was rehersal after rehersal all day. founders day rehersal in the morning, MARCHING. i stood with astrid and we were looking out for fainting ppl. haha. then we proceeded to the LT where we watched the rehersal service from the hall. after that recess and science exhibition technical rehersal. went to science labs to carry out all the experiments and set up our exhibtion on ORCHID HYBRIDIZATION. i am pleased to say we have made considerable progress. i now have a script and i finally know the difference between a hybrid and a crossing. haha. thats basically all that has happened today.
my mood has hit all time low. bah. better not talk to me or i might cry or worse, hit you. i cant help feeling selfish now. today is practically my ONLY free day this week, i have briefing tmr, rehersal til 9 on thursday, and possibly more rehersal on firday since opening day is this saturday. plus i am not getting any points for what i am doing. do you realise how much i am sacrificing?! sheesh. i also have many things weighing on my mind right now, like CRUSHING GUILT, IMMENSE STRESS and many many other things. bah. and i thought i would cheer up after going out but
OHNO... sigh, there i go complaining again. therearepeopleworsethanmetherearepeopleworsethanmetherearepeopleworsethanme.
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lord i need you now, more than ever. i dont understand why i am not feeling happy at all. i should be. i was. until sunday night. BLUEBLACKS STILL PAINFUL.
dawn
2:57 PM
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